A Place 4 Me 2 Write Wut I See, Feel & Think Bout Almost Everything

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


Sunday, October 18, 2009


Recently I quite busy becoz I'm rushing my KP,PA Assignment and other Assignment....huhu..then GIFTED PROGRAMME..make me really..really...stress..huwaaaa...also I need to learn sumthing new for my journey.... It really Busy all day long.... Becoz of dis.....
I can't meet my ♥Lovely HubBy♥..... Really unhappy...Batman..i miss you..

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Juz Relax...haha..

Change or not to change...huhuu...

Dis cant be right i've to go back to d start of things or at least make an attempt..
do we really noe wat it is??
its juz a word used to measure wat we cant control,
its all juz an illusion nothing else...
I cant accept dis cataclysmic fall...
I’ll make it better again..
juz wait..

Sunday, September 13, 2009

May our Ramadan be accepted by Allah and may he grant us long life to witness the next season of Ramadan...

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

"You Raise Me Up

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.


Saturday, September 5, 2009

Are You Hurting?

To u out der who r hurting..tat heavy pain in ur chest?

I noe it only too well n i've some really good advice..
Breathe...., it gets better, every second tat passes is a second u've survived tat pain.
Drain d colors out of d pictures tat r replaying in ur head again n... again.
Juz for a second think of time u were happy b4 u met ur partner..n dun say der isn't one.., it makes u feel better if for a moment.

Now change sumthing, move sumthing even if u change his name in ur phone, watch shin chan... juz anything tats new..do it now.. remove their belongings..be free of dem for juz a while.. so u can feel d emotion inside urself.

Tat pain u feel in ur chest is juz triggered by d emotion u r feeling right now anger, sadness, loss, grief, betrayal.
Acknowledge it...

Take a another breath n noe tat u deserve not too feel dis pain, u r smart.. beautiful as an individual, u r u ...n tat person has taken u for granted u may feel like u've lost sumthing but believe me u've juz found sumthing..
u've juz found ur inner strength..

Be proud, not sad take a few days to urself to think things over do wat feels right to u tat inner voice tat comes frm ur heart tat tells u d way to go..
Sometimes in life d hardest path to choose is usually d right one..u r strong, have some 'me' time n let dem wait 4 u.

U can do it..now breathe.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Friday, August 21, 2009

Michael Jackson - Give thanks to Allah

Give thanks to Allah,
for the moon and the stars
prays in all day full,
what is and what was
take hold of your iman
dont givin to shaitan
oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah..Allahu Ghefor Allahu Rahim Allahu yuhibo el Mohsinin,
hua Khalikhone hua Razikhone whahoa ala kolli sheiin khadir..Allah is Ghefor Allah is Rahim Allah is the one who loves the Mohsinin,
he is a creater, he is a sistainer and he is the one who has power over all.

Give thanks to Allah,
for the moon and the stars
prays in all day full,
what is and what was
take hold of your iman
dont givin to shaitan
oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah.
Allahu Ghefor Allahu Rahim Allahu yuhibo el Mohsinin,
hua Khalikhone hua Razikhone whahoa ala kolli sheiin khadir

Allah is Ghefor Allah is Rahim Allah is the one who loves the Mohsinin,
he is a creater, he is a sistainer and he is the one who has power over all.

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Wednesday, August 19, 2009


1st let me start by congratulating dose who've made it to dis day... graduation day, 2009...hip..hip..hooray... d long awaited day has arrived when all d hard work of years, culminates in dis day of celebration.!

d people tat helped u along d way, even if they weren't certain of d outcome, never withdrew their love & support... u noe who they r...
Juz look into d crowd n u'll see dem, buttons popping, dabbing away a tear or two...
It's ur day.., but u didn't get here alone...
ders not enough time in one's lifetime to learn everything there is to noe....u may be an expert in ur field n ur opinion highly sought.., but never get to point where u think der's no more to learn. Be humble but strong in ur convictions, most of all,... be true to yourself.!!!


Saturday, July 4, 2009

Think or not to Think...

BOhSAN….BOhhSANNN….I noe tat my r/s now isn’t going to be easy…but I’ve to be brave enough to experience dis emotional roller coaster….act, i dun wana take our r/s for granted batman…coz i noe it’s hard to find true love n a good person like u…to share my hopes n dreams wit...i need sumone to travel beside me on my life’s path…act dear, I dunno how to make u feel tat u r a part of my life… Shud i make a regular habit of talking to u on phone n der shud be hope of meeting soon...dunno..my be I shud take up a new hobby…hmmm..

Friday, July 3, 2009

Back To SCHOOL...

Welcome back !!!!,
D ‘1st’ day of school is here,n in sum ways, not much has changed..
meet d same lectr…same members…and same office….huhuhu…!
Well, maybe a few things have changed…
assgment…syllabus n see how much work is expected of me dis semester…hmmm…
So, I shud take advantage of d new semester n take d time to get organized now,den when things get hectic later on, i'll be prepared...
Wanna go to Warta n get a new planner…kukui..
hopefully I’ll get a well semester..Aminnn…

Monday, June 22, 2009

A Song 4 U

A new day has...come
I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear
Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought
I had it all
But I was waiting for you
Hush, love I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come
Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness,
I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy
Hush, love I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come

Sunday, June 21, 2009

A Song 4 U

A New Day Has Come...

Today marks d start of my 2nd semester in d Master’s program…. Surely I’m excited to get started… dis semester I’ll be taking 4 courses wit al my beloved fren…n more special…wit my step mom…huhuhuu…be strong my dear…

Thursday, June 18, 2009


Well, its tat time of d year again when I get my exam results n once again I’m very pleased wit d outcome… I achieved a first average dis semester making my position a very strong one for doing well in the nex sem. KP module which was without a doubt d hardest exam I’ve ever taken…huhu…A bulat nw in my hand…but…Surprisingly my lowest mark (B+) came in my Dato’ module which I felt was one of d easiest exams n one of d ones I was most likely to excel in…huhuhu.. der may have been some complacency involved resulting in my lower than expected performance… My ‘cake’ result (A-) did confirm to me tat it is possible to do very well in dis module wit a minimum of work..dis was without a doubt my least revised-for module… Not quite sure why dis is, but I’m not complaining at d grade.On a more serious note these results mean tat I’m going into d nex sem on oklalala standing and tat I can also afford to oklalala relax…but today’s surely a very good day….

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Fasting Puts our Passions & our Vain Desires in Check

Dis's why d Prophet gave d following advice:
“O assembly of young people, whosoever among u has d wherewithal to marry should do so, as it will help him to lower his gaze n safeguard his chastity....n whoever is unable to do so should fast, because it diminishes sexual desire.”
[Sahîh al-Bukhârî (5066) & Sahîh Muslim (1400)]
The Prophet (peace be upon him) points out tat fasting withholds a person frm responding to his passions. Some scholars have discussed dis hadîth in conjunction wit another, where d Prophet (peace be upon him) says:
“Indeed, Satan circulates through d descendant of Adam as blood circulates through d body.”
[Sahîh al-Bukhârî (2039) & Sahîh Muslim (2174)]
Even though d phrase
“…so restrict his circulatory paths by fasting”
tat's sometimes quoted along wit dis hadîth is baseless, d fact remains tat fasting does put our passions in check, n it's quite possible tat one way in which it does so is by restricting Satan’s ability to circulate within our persons, as stated by some scholars.
Wat's more likely is tat fasting keeps our compulsions in check by keeping us involved in a specific act of worship... dis continuous connection wit an act of worship helps us to refrain frm unlawful acts, including those acts, like the forbidden gaze, tat incite our desires....
I really dunno where to start, or how to start, except to say Tq 4 all concern+care+support+words of encouragement.
What's important 4 me now is to constantly remind myself tat I'm surrounded by good friends n an extended family tat cares very much 4 me... n to put3 who was worried for me n tried to get in touch, let me say this now – u r my best buddy who’s actually care. Tq so much!!!
I'm much better now...Huhuhu...I/Allah wit Syed.. Thanks to a few people who were der 4 me (u noe who u r). Sue, Norm, Far, eyene, my bos n her hubby dr.ayman who gave me a good bitch-slap (in a good way)...juz held my hand in silence, n told me not to worry!!!



Stress!!!! Huhu...hw can i release dis unwanted stress...i pck dis tips..hope can help me to de-stress n simply keep myself in a calm frame of mind....n move through challenging circumstances....i try to do dis to keep my stress under control...huuuhhuhu...

*** got it frm Total Relaxation: Release Stress & Tension By Kelly Howell

1. Ask for help

Be aware that you cannot, nor are you expected to, know and do everything. Accept the fact that each person has limits and sometimes we need to help each other.

2. Avoid over-scheduling

Only be involved or do activities that are of interest and most important to you.

3. Avoid perfectionism

Be realistic, accept and realize that nobody is perfect, so don't expect you or others to be perfect.

4. Be Resilient

Try to go with the flow and resist trying to over-control a situation, person or circumstances. When you remain calm and cool under pressure you are better able to handle problems as they arise, because you maintain clearer focus. But building your resilience takes practice and patience by developing a positive attitude and behaviour in these different areas, so remember to....

Welcome change as a challenge and allow it to be part of your normal life
View obstacles or setbacks as a being temporary and believe that all will be solved for the highest good for all concerned
As each problem or roadblock arises, take the time to be pro-active in solving the dilemma in a peaceful manner
Surround yourself with strong, loving, positive-thinking, supportive friends and family
Ask your supportive friends and family for help when needed, but avoid becoming co-dependent
Enjoy yourself, have fun, relax, remain humble and always show gratitude

5. Break down your problems

Instead of becoming overwhelmed by trying to solve a huge problem all at once, learn to break it into smaller segments or categories, so that you feel a sense of control. Then calmly look at each category one by one, evaluate your options, list pros and cons, look at the bigger picture to assess how it affects your future before arriving at a conclusion. By learning this strategy you will build inner confidence and this in turn will reduce unnecessary stress. Avoid ignoring the problem altogether, because ignorance is not bliss and the problem won't magically disappear. Instead, it will remain unsolved, which will only add to your plate of stress and increase your lack of control.

6. Exercise

Maintain a daily exercise routine to strengthen your muscles and cardio-vascular system. Exercise also stimulates your lymphatic system to releases waste/toxins from your body, increases blood flow to your brain and circulates energy throughout your entire system.

7. Honour your body

Avoid abusing your body through excess use of drugs, alcohol, over-eating, smoking or over-indulgence of junk foods.

8. Maintain proper sleep

This keeps you better equipped, mentally and physically, by providing increased clarity and focus when dealing with stressors. If necessary, rejuvenate by taking short ten or fifteen minute power naps during the day.

9. Monitor your thinking

All thoughts are energy, all action follows a thought; therefore, you control your reality in which your outlook, attitude and re-actions influence your life. Energy attracts the same frequency vibration, so what you think, you will get or attract; therefore, be very careful what you think or wish for.

10. Nutrition

Eat a balanced variety of nutritious foods, drink eight, eight-ounce glasses of water, reduce fats and sugar and supplement with additional vitamins and minerals.

11. Relax

This creates calmness and a sense of well-being. So the next time you feel yourself tense up, breathe slowly, deeply and evenly until you feel calmer. Your body's chemical imbalances can be reversed or greatly improved simply by relaxing. You can learn to relax through doing such activities such as: walking, simple 1-2-3-4 breathing exercises, meditation, visualizations, music, reading, painting, enjoyable hobbies, a relaxing bath, massage, Reiki, reflexology; the list goes on. It is important to find what works for you.

An important key for releasing unwanted stress and increasing your over-all success, is to regard each challenge as a golden opportunity for spiritual growth and a means to learn valuable lessons. Then regard stressors as just temporary problems or hiccups. You cannot eliminate stress altogether, otherwise you would have no motivation to do anything worthwhile or constructive; therefore you would experience no personal growth. But moderate amounts of good stress will induce you to make sensible, achievable goals, monitor your growth progress, allow yourself time for relaxation and enjoyment, remain optimistic, believe in your capabilities, plus make positive choices to live your life to its fullest potential.

One final word of advice.... refuse to allow stress to control or dominate you; instead, make the effort to learn how to control and tame it.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Wife or Girlfriend

This is good.... But true !

Wife is like a TV. Girlfriend is like handphone.
At home watch TV. Go out bring h/p.
No money sell TV. Got money change h/p.
Sometimes enjoy TV but most of the time play with h/p.
TV free for life but....
h/p,if you don't pay,
"Nombor yang anda dail tiada dalam perkhidmatan" ....!
the number u dial is not in service.
My comment:
TV more reliable, h/p more fashionable...
Wat's yours...........

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Fleeting Pleasure, Enduring Pain

Let's talk bout pleasure & pain. Pleasure first, bcoz it makes u feel good. But life's pleasures seem so fleeting & evanescent, like glistening dewdrops tat evaporate wit d first hint of d warm rays of d sun.

A pleasant state of being , we instinctively feel, is intrinsically unstable. Pleasure vanishes like a transient bubble, while pain endures. Wat's pleasant is short-lived bcoz d human mind quickly gets used to it, n subconsciously craves to heighten & intensify tat feeling of pleasure, as it lingers in d memory & haunts d mind.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Love Of A Lifetime

I never thought I wud ever find a love like d one I've,nor did I ever imagine juz how deep d pain of missing him would go...Its diffcult to explain to others how u feel bout a special sumone but if you've ever been in love..truly in love then theres no need to describe it for u already know wat I'm speaking of....

"My Batman.... I'm sure u wonder how a love can survive like dis, I credit it to Allah help n bcoz we're true to our hearts n each other..."

I've never known a man like him before.. he's so tender and loving he expresses his feelings so sweetly tat my heart melts over n over. He took my heart by storm when.....hmmm...i'm also not sure...but I was totally head-over-heels in love wit him...huhuhu....thnks a lot sayang...u noe..I would choose d one tat fills my heart wit sumthing u can't buy no matter how rich u r...LOVE... Its free but its so very hard to find n I'm so very happy tat I found mine in dis wonderful loving man...He makes me rich by loving me..when true love finds u do everything in ur power to keep it alive coz it may never come around again.
I love you Syed wit my every breath wit every beat of my heart... u're tat love of a lifetime tat will only come by my heart once n I wanna do all tat I can to keep u happy...

Sunday, May 31, 2009

' A New Day Has Come...'

Yeah.., so I came back home for d next TASK...wit my beloved step mom...Research....huuh.... starts again monday though, so I’m headed back up tomorrow. Other than tat, I don’t have much to say. I’m bringing my korean movie up wit me so I can 'play' til d end of dis sem break...even so much..much...work to do...huhu...tomorow i'll c my beloved again...surprise...libry??...haha...i juz need a spporter...cool and patient....

Sunday, May 24, 2009


Saturday, May 23, 2009

Long Distance Relationship

"Still Loving Your Long-Distance Relationship" and "Loving Your Long-Distance Relationship for Women, " shares the best way to keep love hot, avoid mistakes, and escape temptation.
So, may be I should find dis book...juz wanna noe how to manage a Long Distance Relationships effectively…as a preparation from seperateness..huhh.. for me, distance can’t n will not hurt a bond between 'US'.. as long as our r/s ‘s based on mutual respect, trust, commitment, n finally…luv!!.
Although i may feel like I’m losing faith in my r/s at times,.. but i must hold fast n trust my heart! truly believe tat u’ll make my life so special… TQ for being so kind wit my heart.
Hopefully, soon I won't have to hate missing u.. TQ for making my life so much more meaningful n giving me dis chance to show u wat luv means to me...tq..tq..tq..

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Saturday, May 16, 2009


So, here I’m, all by myself, thinkin of u - no one else. Der's a feeling inside n as hard as I try, it juz won't go away. d Cameron rose tat u gave me has faded n wilted away. But, d love tucked in deep inside remains in my heart forever. Time will prove my love to u n cement my place in ur heart forever. For time will give me d credibility n d believability tat I need to convince u to wanna spend the rest of ur life with me. Tat I’m worthy of such a commitment from u.”

Dear Syed,

I’m juz writing to show d world how much I love u n never stopped loving u. U r one of d most remarkable people I've ever known. You're kind, caring, loving n patient wit bulan mengambang …hehe… Syed, u noe…when I’m wit u, I feel alive...coz u bring to me a happiness no one else has before…u bring to me a love I’ve never known before.

I couldn’t imagine wat my life wud be like without u. I noe tat I dun wanna even imagine. U’ve touched my heart in ways no one could ever comprehend. My Aiman.. der’s nothing tat I could ever give u tat wud ever come close to how I feel bout u. I love being wit u n I wanna spend d rest of my life wit u…hope u feel d same.. If only u knew how much I wanna stay in ur life.

Act sayang, I dunno wat love is.. But if it means caring for u, respecting u, believing in u n putting ur happiness above my own, then I’m in love. This is not lust or a silly crush... I really do love u.. las nite we’ve spent together have been incredibly romantic. I hope tat der r more great times to come. I love you, Syed....n ‘ll be missing u…Gudluck in ur future…n our planning…I love u so much…

Monday, May 11, 2009

"I have a great vision that one day this page

will actually be finished and complete.

Please share in this delusion."

Sunday, May 3, 2009


In every lifetime

There are those who seek







and or, Displine.

How often can one find

All these in one person?

My friend,

Every stage in your life

Is a chapter

And an advancement

To the next level.


Tuesday, April 28, 2009